When people have asked us about having kids and such, my answer has mostly been “maybe someday”. Early on that response was full of excitement and anticipation. Then once we began encountering our infertility issues that “maybe someday” became a robotic response of hopelessness. A response to pacify the question being asked without having to dwell on the fact that we couldn’t. Everyone means well, and I have no ill feelings towards anyone who has asked us that question. It comes from a place of love and curiosity. However, this question always gave me such anxiety. “Do I give them the honest answer?” (which let’s be honest, they really didn’t ask that question to hear our issues), OR do I just give a generic “maybe someday”. … Now, when I say “maybe someday” it is one of true anticipation and excitement once again. God has redeemed what once brought sadness, anxiety, and isolation into my life to a response that brings true joy and fullness beyond anything I could imagine.

I believe everyone has their own “maybe someday”. For some it may be a bucket list item, or it may be a similar situation like ours. Whatever level, however painful, know that God can take whatever situation we find ourselves in and redeem them for His Glory. By finally speaking about our infertility and being open and vulnerable we have not only received healing, but have also been able to have conversations with others who have also struggled or are currently struggling. Being vulnerable can be scary because we are telling our secrets, and once out, we can no longer control them. We fear that someone won’t understand, that they will judge us, or maybe that they will find us annoying. We tend to belittle our circumstances and burdens so that we can appear to have things under control. It’s evident all over social media, we get highlights of all the good, with no evidence of bad, which gives off this persona of “all is good”. However, God calls us to bear each others burdens and there is a true community and a bond that comes when we all gather around and admit that we are all broken people. God wants to bring healing and redemption, and in order for that to happen, we must be transparent so that God can work, through his body of believers and the Holy Spirit, to redeem all for His Glory and our good.

I hope that by seeing how God has brought us full circle with our grief and sadness that you’re given hope in whatever circumstance you find yourself in. Maybe you find yourself where we were a few months ago. A place of loneliness, hopelessness, sadness, or even grief. Know that God will not and does not abandon those who call upon him. He is faithful. He is good. And He will bring you joy in the sorrow.

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